When someone says, “This is the most important thing to focus on” I have, in the past, always agreed. Yes, mm-hmm, that’s right, yes, that thing IS the most important one. And all the energy I’ve been spending on the other thing is a waste of time, is so glaringly wrong, and how could I have not seen that?
I was showing my messy overgrown garden to someone and they pointed out a particular corner that was looking particularly pathetic. “Look! That is where you should start. You definitely need to focus on that and then everything else will just come together. See?” I began to nod my head but then realized that I didn’t have to agree. This is MY garden. No one else knows how to work it but me.
I think I need to start clearing out all the weeds first. I sort of started weeding a couple of years ago but it was in a random aimless halfhearted kind of way. I pulled out one over there, a few in the middle, and raked up some of the soil. It was boring and tedious and the damn weeds just came right back. I finally began reading a really great gardening book and I am still reading it, but slowly I’m gathering up ideas and plans, choosing what actions to take during which season.
If I agree with someone else’s idea of where to start, then I’m just doing the grunt work of building someone elses garden. I want to work on my own garden. I am going to have a garden full of peace and light, full of small hidden treasures and some well chosen anchor plants and borders. It will be lovely… I can see it already in my heart. But first, for me, is pulling weeds.
This is gonna take some work.
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